Addiction Admission: Idol Screens

This is embarrassing and humbling. But it is time to admit this sin to myself, God and others. I need to confess my addiction and ask for forgiveness.

A friend defined the word idol as what a person pays attention to more than God. This made me realize the overuse of my phone is breaking a commandment.

                           

Before the world-changing COVID epidemic, my phone was a helpful connection and information tool. During the quarantines, this introverted woman’s reliance on being with people (without masked facial expressions) morphed into neediness. Instead of building intimacy with my Savior, I scrolled for human consolation. Instead of recalling the trustworthiness of the covenant maker, I texted acquaintances whose fears mirrored mine. That was the start of my phone idol addiction.

Also during this time, there was apprehension on both sides of the should we gather for worship? discussion. Because of government deterrents and health concerns, my church was ‘forced’ to go online with devotional opportunities within one week’s time. That meant a steep learning curve into new territory. When a council member suggested we ZOOM Bible classes, I thought it meant getting through the material quickly.

 

The effect of technological convenience (online worship) lingers. My congregation has members whose online worship habit continues. Many no longer know the blessings of meeting with others to worship in person. Might the word watching be the difference between online worship and in-person participation? Yet, for those who cannot leave their home, livestreams provide opportunities.

Which brings up another personal confession: I am easily distracted by people and (mostly) my own thoughts during in-person worship. But the pull to conveniences (fill my coffee cup) and chores (might as well throw in a load of wash) is stronger for me when watching from home.

These thoughts bring me back to my first addiction admission: Am I more attuned to what is on my phone, than who is interceding for me on his throne?

 

Dear Jesus, who hears my every prayer,

I am ashamed to admit my reliance on others through my phone. When I hear a ping, let it be a reminder to pray for godly priorities. When I am tempted to be lonely, show me again how Creation (your reflection) surrounds me, and motivate me to meditate on your Word. Thank you, Almighty God for the good ways you use technology—to bless those all over the world with your Truth. Continue to make me aware of faith-growing opportunities in my home, my church and yes, even on my phone.

Thank you for your merciful forgiveness. Thank you for serving God’s justice, so I may know his grace.

Gratefully your child,

Amen